Darrah Parker » Slice of Life Photography

the long and rambling post

When in doubt, tell the truth.
~ Mark Twain

Okay, so I’m going to be completely honest with you. When I started this blog earlier this year, my goal was to share my journey – the path of a creative person trying to figure it all out – in the hopes that you would be my partner on this path and that we all could learn more about ourselves.

And then I thought I had figured it out. I quit my job, started building a fancy new website, and started calling myself a photographer. I started posting more of my photography and stopped sharing my journey as much on the blog. I had big plans to launch my new photography website early next year with great fanfare. Everyone would stop by, ooh and ahh, and say, “WOW, you’ve totally got it together!” or “WOW, I love your work! Can I hire you?” or just, “WOW!”

But the truth (and I want to be completely truthful with you) is that I don’t have it all figured out. I’ve been hemming and hawing over the details of the new website, watching the days tick by while the list of all the things I DON’T know how to do steadily increases.

Why am I telling you this? I’m telling you this because this is reality. I think it’s time to return to sharing more of the process with you. Because it is only when I am completely truthful that I feel creative and it is only when I am truthful that I move forward instead of standing still.

But then the doubts creep in…

  • Will they respect me as a photographer if they know that I’m a beginner?
  • Will anyone hire me if they read my process on the blog? If they know I’m not perfect?
  • Will I lose my current readers if I move the blog to my photography site?
  • Will the photography people not want to read about the process?
  • Am I limiting myself by just focusing on the photography? There’s more to me, gosh darnit!

And this is when I stop and take a deep breath.

This is an exciting time. There are so many options. So many possibilities. So many things I want to do. And it’s easy to get bogged down by the details. It’s easy to get paralyzed by the “U” word (the “unknown”.)

Last night, I rambled on and on (once again) about all of my concerns and my husband said, ever-so-sweetly, “Just. Do. Something.” He told me about how he got through a similar period in his life many years ago, as he embarked on a new career as a musician. In order to feel like he was accomplishing something, he stayed in perpetual motion. He would focus on something until he was ready to do something else. And then he would do something else. Every small thing he did, whether it was practice a new song or return a phone call, was an accomplishment and moved him forward.

So that’s the plan. I am going to start focusing on the small successes (like today, I made the banner for the new website. Yay!) I’m going to take small steps every day. And I’m going to start sharing more of the process with you.

So hold on to your hats! It’s going to be a wild ride!


Listen: The Long and Winding Road by the Beatles