On January 1 of 2009, I declared it the “year of me.” I didn’t really know exactly what that meant, but I said it out loud to my husband (boyfriend at the time.) I didn’t have a blog yet, where I could declare my word of the year for all the world to see. So I kept it to myself and let it guide me through the year.
I suppose how the “year of me” unfolded was into a year of “experiment” or maybe a year of “play” and it most definitely resulted in a year of “change.” I didn’t share anything about the “year of me” on my blog until the very end of the year. I was kind of protective of it and maybe a little nervous about what people would think. I thought it sounded kind of selfish to say that the year was all about me. But that wasn’t the point. The point was to finally start listening to my instincts and to try things that sounded like fun. And that’s just what I did! Yay!
As 2010 approached and doubts started to creep in, I knew I had to pick a new word. It was time to be bold and to choose something that would be my life vest as I dive into uncharted territory in the new year. I will be trying many new things (including building and launching a new website and photography business…no small feat) and there is no way I can do everything I want to do if I don’t believe in myself. So that is my word for 2010. BELIEVE.
Byron Katie created a process called “The Work” in which you answer four questions in order to get to the heart of a problem and release suffering, pain, or frustration. The question I keep coming back to is the fourth question: Who would you be without the thought?
As I move forward into the year and into areas I don’t feel prepared for, I will start asking myself that question more and more – to keep myself honest. Here are a few that I’m working on now:
- Who would I be if I thought I knew what I was doing?
- Who would I be if I wasn’t worried about what people think?
- Who would I be if I went with my instincts?
- Who would I be if I just DID it instead of researching it for days?
- Who would I be if I BELIEVED in myself?
The answer to all of those questions: happy, confident, and free. So why the heck wouldn’t I want to be happy, confident, and free? The only thing standing in my way is me.
So here we go! A new year. A new word. I will check in from time to time to let you know how the year of “BELIEVE” is going. I have a feeling this one is going to take a lot of practice.